The Fruits 4: I AM Fruitful

The Fruits 4: I AM Fruitful


Alright ‘Fruits 4’ I think maybe we
just have one or two after this [questioning] let’s talk about identity and the name that
Jesus calls us to catch up check out the links below of
the first three videos we’re at the Women at the Well retreat and it is the
last day and my friend spiritual mentor Rebecca Pierce has her keynote and she
gives this beautiful and powerful and just preaches on our identity and the
name that God calls you by and she goes through- I love how Rebecca studies the
Old Testament and how she teaches us to read it- but she goes through the Old Testament she talks about all the different names of God like El Roi and Shalom and all of
these things and so like- and then like- what is the name that God knows you by?
and so then she goes through like you know Jacob’s name and things like that
and like so she had us do this like super powerful meditation and really
like meditating and envisioning us being forehead to forehead with Jesus and him
whispering to us what our true name is the name that he calls us not just our
given name and I just I got so stuck on it I could could not think of a name and
I oftentimes get jealous of people when they hear from God so much and they have these like crystal clear messages from God and I often joke like I could just
really use a text message it- text message from God like one with no
undertones like crystal clear tell me what you want dude like tell me what you
need me to do tell me what I’m supposed to do oftentimes I cannot tell you how
many times I pray, “Show this to me in a way that I can understand,” and so like I
just I don’t necessarily hear from God audibly and I definitely find that I
don’t hear from him when I’m asking to hear from him directly and yet my
keynote from just the day before was all of these examples and wouldn’t
spoke to me and made sure I heard him crystal clear so it wasn’t surprising
that when I was closing my eyes and I was envisioning being forehead to
forehead with Christ I came up with nothing for what he calls me what’s the
name that he calls me I I wrote down chosen treasure, I am a chosen loved
daughter of enough, like and it never- it didn’t feel right it didn’t resonate
well that was the last day of the retreat and so Brooke remember she had
come- come to me after my keynote with tears and she had to pray for me she was
like I still- I must- I have to pray for you the Holy Spirit will not let it go
like I have to pray for you and and then what happened is something that I will
never ever ever forget Kristin sat beside me and I said like I
get both of you I never had someone pray over me like that and Brooke sat at my
feet and then Rebecca sat on the other side of me and they prayed silently and
out loud and in words that I didn’t understand and the tears- my whole body
overcome and Brooke said I just I keep hearing the word ‘fruitful’ and it is not
the fruitful that your head is gonna go to immediately like that ‘be fruitful and
multiply’ and it is not the fruitful of go produce is what I came up with later
but it’s like be fruitful you are going to birth this miracle and it’s not
necessarily a baby that you’re old traumas and losses will tell you and so
she just she prayed it was just like it’s crazy I’ve never experienced
anything like that in my entire life Rebecca wrote something down in a
journal that I still- she still hasn’t been given permission to
share with me yet and then almost like it was kind of over and it was amazing
it was holy and something shifted in me forever and then Brooke said you know
what hold on I- I have to- I have to read something over you I have to read
something over you and so then she read this, “Arise my dearest. Hurry my darling.
Come away with me. I have come as you have asked, to draw you to my heart and
lead you out. For now is the time my beautiful one. The season has changed. The
bondage of your barren winter has ended and the season of hiding is over and
gone. The rains have soaked to the earth and left it bright with blossoming
flowers. The season for singing and pruning the vines has arrived.
I hear the cooing of doves in our land, filling the air with songs to awaken you
and guide you forth. Can you not discern this new day of destiny breaking forth
around you? The early signs of my purposes and plans are bursting forth.
The budding vines of new life are now blooming everywhere. The fragrance of
their flowers whispers there is change in the air. Arise my love, my beautiful
companion and run with me to the higher place. For now is the time to arise and
come away with me.” that’s Song of Songs 2:10-13 in
The Passion Translation which she read from I had never heard it and and she
said read Songs as His love letter to you and I’ve been enamored with it ever
since I had picked apart that Scripture and so that night I went back and I
studied fruitful because by God it was not going to be be fruitful and multiply
because this womb is closed and I suppose many would call it barren
so Colossians 1:10 Hebrews 11:1 John 15:16 First Peter 2:9 John 15:8 Matthew
5:16 and I came upon Galatians 5:22 The Fruits of the Spirit and it is there
that God smacked me hard upside the head because just a few weeks prior to this
my coach Cassandra had said she had taken me through this activity of like
what do I want to be- feel- who do I want to be no matter what my success is no
matter how much money I’m making no matter what I am doing and she made me-
like she took me through all of these words and I came up with like I am
faithful I am joyful and I am unshakable and all of a sudden when I was
journaling that that night picking apart fruitful I read Fruits of the Spirit in
Galatians 5:22 in The Passion Translation and there it was plain to
see, “Joy that overflows, peace that subdues, patience that endures, kindness
in action, a life full of virtue, faith that prevails, gentleness of spirit-
of heart, and strength of spirit.” I am joyful, joy that overflows. I am faithful,
faith that prevails. I am unshakable, strength of spirit; peace
that subdues. I then and there started to reclaim
fruitful that it did not mean be fruitful and multiply
and I also had to also claim that it did not mean fruitful and striving and
producing especially for my worthiness but the fruit produced by the Holy
Spirit within you is ‘divine love in all its varied expressions’ that HE is in me
that that is what fruitful is: if I abide in him good fruit will be produced
I am fruitful I am fruitful and good goodness
had I known where that would lead me I may have stopped the journey there so I
will see you next time as this led into more of my work in
letting go of striving because the FRUIT OF HIS SPIRIT lives in me I’ll see you
next time